Well I finished another chapter in my life and am a little ( by that i mean completely) worse for wear for it. But even now i can see no other solution to the issue that caused the chain of events to happen.

I am somewhat morbid and hollow at the moment. My mother told me in the car today that she thinks this song discribes me perfectly i didn't know weather to laugh, cry or hit her.

Betty Davis Eyes - Kim Carnes

Her hair is Harlowe gold
Her lips sweet surprise
Her hands are never cold
She's got Bette Davis eyes
She'll turn her music on you
You won't have to think twice
She's pure as New York snow
She got Bette Davis eyes

And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
All the better just to please you
She's precocious and she knows just
What it takes to make a pro blush
She got Greta Garbo stand off sighs
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll let you take her home
It whets her appetite
She'll lay you on her throne
She got Bette Davis eyes
She'll take a tumble on you
Roll you like you were dice
Until you come out blue
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll expose you, when she snows you
Off your feet with the crumbs she throws you
She's ferocious and she knows just
What it takes to make a pro blush
All the boys think she's a spy
She's got Bette Davis eyes

And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
All the better just to please ya
She's precocious, and she knows just
What it takes to make a pro blush
All the boys think she's a spy
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll tease you
She'll unease you
Just to please ya
She's got Bette Davis eyes
She'll expose you, when she snows you
She knows ya
She's got Bette Davis eyes

I almost had a really bad accident on the highway today.... A drum fell off one of the trucks, the car to my left broke because it was heading for him, and i broke because it was rolling my way, the guy eind us towing a caravan didn't see me break and went to merge without slowling down, almost rammed me turned and went skidding sideways and tried to drive back up the highwayto stop the trailer rolling and taking him with it.... T________T' very scarry.... Also made me realise I have one less person to confide in now days. That breaks my heart into a million pieces.

Thank god for 'Lexie, she has never failed to the best friend i could ever ask for.

I start tafe on the 9th. The gorgeous energetic free happy children i get to take care of will life my spirits i'm sure, and i get out of the house, till then, i shall confine myself to my room, listen to great bad music, drink, draw and cry it all out.